Monday, March 28, 2016

Up on the mountain

Man this year is cruising by, isn't it?
It seems like I turn around and we are into the next month with no looking back.
I work on a Google calendar constantly and it seems like I live my life so much in the future that
I get lost in the "Now" sometimes, I am sure a lot of you know what I am talking about.
I can tell you where I am playing on October 15th, but I am not certain what day it is today!

But then I get days like I got yesterday.  
No hurry, no bustle, just a family day that was in no rush.
I was so tired and wore out from working all week, I couldn't have moved fast if I tried.
It just seemed like I was living in "Slow Motion".
I saw every smile on every face, I heard every word from every mouth and I enjoyed it all.
My mother-in-law is an excellent cook and we had a great big Easter dinner with all the 
family there.  The girls were playing and telling stories and my father-in-law was schooling me
on politics and I was learning.
It was one of those days where I felt like I wasn't quite in my body, I was a little outside of it
and could see myself with the others. I was there in full form but also an outsider reveling in
the comradery of loved ones. 
It's one of those days where I tell my wife I love her about a thousand times.
Yes I am grateful, yes I am thankful and I try my best to be aware, but sometimes I am the most
aware when I don't try at all and just let it happen, like yesterday.

Life happens, everyday, with or without us.
I am always knee deep in it, working, taking care of kids and goal oriented.
I have many fires to put out on any given day and that takes a lot of space up in my head,
but I am always trying to make sure I connect. Maybe it's just for a minute in the car or the shower,
I say a prayer and make contact. I always wish I could do more, and I could but I have a million excuses. It seems to me that when I take a second to just slow down and breathe, it all gets easier.
A day like yesterday doesn't happen everyday, it could not, I would get nothing done.
A friend used to say "I can't stay up on the mountain too long, I have to get back down in the valley
where the work is being done."
It is so true.
I am down in the valley today where I belong and I am doing what I need to do, but I truly
enjoyed my trip to the mountain top yesterday. It was a glorious view.

Peace, Love, Zito